hellllooooo! hi, it's me. down here. waaay down here. i've been in this rut for a couple months now and i'm glad you still recognize me. where to begin? i literally feel like i'm the support crew from the trenches for all of these men i'm living with. i'm either nursing & holding the baby or stimulating a very busy 2 year old. and then there's encouraging and prodding an RM brother or supporting an overly stressed businessman husband in a not so business friendly economy. let it be documented that there are literally weeks where the majority of my time is spent keeping the dirty dishes from molding, muddy butts from rashing and these 4 men of mine from having absolute break downs.
i feel like a different woman. and i like it.
because amongst all the chaos, i'm happy. very very happy. i'm usually disheveled and have pretty much jumped off the vanity bus altogether. and it's ok. i've discovered the hair color aisle at CVS and let my $8 go wild every 3 weeks. i've let go of my obsession with being the center of attention and really love the view from seated position in the curtains. i really love parenting with brandon. i feel like my time with the boys is so meaningful and i try to be present when i'm with them. i really love brandon. although he's the quieter one around here, he's keeping this ship afloat and doing it in the most brilliant, brandon ways. we don't celebrate us ever but freaking out while watching Lost together and the occasional high-5 after sex keeps the fiery furnace of burning love ablaze.
so there. life is great in its' own mundane way and one of these days, i'll have something to brag about............unlike my finish time in this weekend's 10K.
a wing-dinger of a week
16 hours ago