today was one of those weird, self evaluating days. as I was sitting at church with my ultra hip and super fresh friends, tiff and julianne, i became suddenly aware of the large number of new faces sitting amongst us. one hot new young couple tickling each other's backs, another speaking from the pulpit and a suuuper young blonde giving the closing prayer.
not sounding weird yet? well, it became odd when i realized that the part that bothered me wasn't that i didn't know who they were but.... they all knew each other. this new crop of cute newlyweds in church were probably getting together for couples' dates like late night movies and dinners. doing things married people do before children. fun right? i loved those days however, i'm not writing this because i'm wanting to go back or even be invited to the get togethers. (btw- i'm kinda a grandpa these days. supper at 5:30pm and in bed by 8. you have to call it supper when it's that early. oh, and i like to complain about the weather too). what was i saying?
oh yes. the main problem. here we go. i realized i'm one of those older chicks in the ward with kids that the newbies probably don't care to get to know. i remember being in that position. it was hard talking to mothers about my job because i didn't even know if they'd ever had a job. and i certainly didn't know what to ask a mom about her life with the kids. being a stay at home mom seemed sooo foreign to me and highly undesirable back then. it really was one of those "i wish i knew back then what i know now" moments.
i love being home with brooks and ade but besides that, i'm a freaking interesting person. right? i know most of my current conversations include stories about sleeping schedules, teething, easy recipes or new crafting projects but............. oh crap, nevermind. i was a freaking interesting person. :)
i guess it's time i drop my perceived stereotypes of other moms. being a mom is a lot more of an identity overcoat than i realized. and here i am once again realizing how much more of a real personmy own mom is. this post is going on and on and my brain has been sucked out by my nursing baby, so hopefully it's making some sense. has anyone else had one of these reality checks besides me? please share..