Tuesday, November 10, 2009

-snap out of it

ever seen a picture of yourself that makes you laugh just thinking about it?
this is mine.
i was so stressed about my dumb camera at scottsdale fashion week.
these people -the video guy and intern- were patient enough to listen to my gripes and sit while erick tried to get it to focus. i think jose actually got this shot.
either way- the entire low lighting experience kicked me in the crotch.
i've been editing the shots and crying my way through the fuzzy mess.

and after 2 major melt downs i have to sit back and laugh.
i'm laughing at what a big freaking deal i make out of everything.
i'm laughing about the crazy expectations i put on myself.
i'm laughing about the amazing evening i nearly missed because of my perfectionist tunnel vision.
and i'm really laughing when i think about how everyone must be laughing at me too.

humbled.

now- back to work

4 comments:

Sara said...

Awesome picture only made better by the other girl's expression.

I also have this tunnel vision and I think this is why I get all puffed up with righteous indignation until something deflates me.

Sorry about your crotch.

Nathanael Rey said...

I Love all three of your expressions, haha. And sorry about the crotch... that can't be fun.

Wagars said...

Thank you for the explanation. I saw it on facebook but didn't get your hand motion. Clearly there was a story behind it. Now it makes perfect sense.

DJCK incorporated said...

You have more talent in your pinkie finger than most have overall. Don't be so hard on yourself. Life is to work hard, but it also is to have fun. I am glad that you are laughing. Just remember your cheer squad is rooting for you.
PS you don't have to post this. But I want you to know how I feel.
Mom